I have not written anything on here lately. That is due to a mixture of mass amounts of school work and studying, followed by a heavy dose of work and social committments.
What I have been contemplating lately, is the difference between human beings and personalities. Some personalities rub others the wrong way, while those same people are viewed as extremely attractive to others. It doesn't make anyone right or wrong in their thinking or how they read people, it just makes them different.
For the longest time I was concerned with other people's opinions of my life or people that I liked, and it would make me upset if my friends had a negative view about someone or something I cared about, because it rubbed them the wrong way. But we are all very different. One person will be offended by something, and that is alright, but another wont be offended, and this is alright too.
I am talking about minor infractions, nothing grand scale. Im not talking about public nudity or committing crimes or anything like that. I am talking about how people react to social interactions, conversations between people, events that occur in relationships, etc.
I think one of the most poisonous things a person could do, is to not even think about another person's view on things, and to just impose your own view on their situation, unsolicited. Unless, of course, that person is in harm's way, being abused verbally or physically, or their health is in danger. If they are happy in their situation, then let them be happy.
You are allowed your opinion, but be sensitive in how you phrase it. I am a nice person, I like to find the best in people. I am also a Christian female and a morally "good girl," somehow this translates to people as being naive or weak and it drives me insane. Those words literally make my face hot. It is as if they are implying I am in LaLa Land and I am unaware of surrounding circumstances.
Quite the opposite, I am very aware. I have the type of personality where I play out all the possible outcomes of a scenarios before I get involved in that scenario, and that leads to me making a more informed decision. This can apply to anything, from shopping at a grocery store, to when I started dating my boyfriend, to being a high school student. Every cause has an affect. I don't have that many regrets because this is how I am.
I do not live my life in reckless abandon, not looking at any consequences to my actions, social or otherwise. When I walk into a parking garage, I am not Bambi. I am not humming a silly little tune and skipping to my car. I have my keys between my fingers and mace in my hand. And yes, I can and have kicked a guy in the head before (he was my friend, but I can still do it). I have also been yelled at by an ex-boyfriend for being too nice and not getting upset with him, how does that make sense? He obviously needed turmoil that I could not give him.
If I dated a guy that mistreated me in any way, done. End of story. I am not a Yo-Yo dater just going back for crappy seconds. I do not put up with mistreatment, verbal or otherwise. I choose people I keep close to me very carefully, if you are not able to bring encouragement and all other positives that a friend should be, you will be kept at arms length.
I may be the juxtaposition to what people normally are used to, but that is okay. I have decided that it makes people feel better if they can place you in a category, especially one that is lesser than themselves. I will continue to be joyful and thoughtful. I will continue to be bubbly and informed. I will continue to care and to stand up for the truth. Just because someone places me in a category, does not mean I have to crumble and stay there.
